it ain't mulan's reflection

today i woke up on the right side of the bed, sunlight peered into my room generously and my pillows fluffed around me like horny rabbits wanting to get some. it was all good but the feeling i felt was nowhere near happy. i felt tired. tired of everthing. i don't know why but i just am.

have you ever had one of these days i'm ranting about? right now, i can't philosophize or conjure up any of my usual explanations that beg to be witty. until this very instant, i'm feeling blah. end of statement. just feeling blah.

it's a bit crazy. earlier, people i know seem to notice that i was a bit off. what's even weirder is that when i looked at myself in the mirror during the break, i was sure as hell that my eyes were brimming with emptiness. i was suddenly in front of a young man with a stare i couldn't make out. if he was searching answers from me, i wasn't sure. if i needed them to begin with, was more vague.

and they say no one knows you like yourself. i have to schedule an acquaintance party.

i find myself saying all of these here. this place where my words are concrete, where no one will say they are but gibberish. i'm back.