look at the recent whatchamacallit quiz. it's quite fucking depressing. will i really live with that? yeah, yeah. i know it's just a crappy test but i guess it's just me. whenever i talk on the phone, text with people and these stuff, i don't have the mettle to say farewell---the same is true with the relationships (pluralized? oh, i included friendships in this category too!) i kamikaze into. i find it really hard, knowing it's me who ended whatever that's there. maybe i have a withdrawal disease or something as pathetic as that...

i remembered a few lines from a musical. i edited this a bit to suit me...

everytime we say goodbye, you say you die a little
everytime we say goodbye, i ask myself "why just a little?"
everytime we say goodbye... everytime you say goodbye

i got so used to being said goodbye to. that can't be any good.