flick of mine



i was surfing channels when i chanced upon the movie i've watched the most number of times---my bestfriend's wedding. i didn't hesitate and decided to watch it for the nth time.

this one has a certain affinity with me that's almost like magic. i know the lines by heart, i've already embedded in my mind the plot but every time i sit through it, i still get the heartthumps and goosebumps i had the first time i saw it. i still feel the warmth in my chest.

it's funny that, like the other 11 instances of myself together with julia roberts, dermot mulroney and rupert everett, something funky happened to my eyes.

some day, when i'm awfully low,
when the world is cold,
i will feel a glow just thinking of you...
and the way you look tonight

it may be more than a movie to me, i wonder.

quizzically blogging

i've nothing to do so i decided to take some online tests just for the heck of it. maybe they'll hit the mark.

the results proved to be interesting. the first part was unbelievably true while the second one... giggle-inducing. the test about being a vampire was amusing to see, too. read on...

personality test

markie, you're the kind of person who can usually be counted on. more than most people, your integrity seems to be of central importance to you. this fact bodes well for those around you. it means you tend to say what you mean, keep your promises, and walk your talk. there's very little empty chatter when you're around.

another way you show you can be counted on is by being sensitive to others. you usually know just the right thing to do to make someone feel valued in your life. although you're not the kind who's big on intense emotional confessions or displays, your feelings run deep.

one way you're able to show your true emotions is by being faithful. in relationships, you'll usually try hard to make things work. unlike some, you're not likely to freak out when there's a bump in the road. this is probably just another aspect of your patience and ability to stay on task.

your compassionate nature draws people to you. because you can relate to others, you see yourself as a diplomat of sorts. you prefer to avoid disruption in the workplace if at all possible - especially if you can help others avoid discord.

you are particularly intuitive when it comes to reading some people. and because of your social smarts, people tend to like being around you.

subconscious thoughts

markie, your subconscious mind is most preoccupied with issues around your sex life.

on a conscious level, you might already be aware that something is troubling you, or eating up a lot of time when it comes to your sex life. but it's also possible that thoughts and feelings about your sexual encounters have been preoccupying your subconscious mind - leaving you with nothing more than a general sense that things just don't feel 100% right in your life though you can't quite figure out why.

you may wish your sex life were more satisfying, or you may worry that you're not good enough in bed. perhaps you have conflicts about your sex life or you feel preoccupied with sex. or maybe you're so frustrated with your situation that you avoid the topic all together.

whichever feelings hold true, your test results indicate that right now, your subconscious mind is working overtime to resolve the issues confronting you in this area of your life---even if you don't feel aware of it.

vampire type

you are most likely to be the vampire recluse!

i am here to survive, to live day to day. i create pain to release pain and live in a tormented world of my own making, though i never wished it upon myself. one day, it will all end, and i can at last relinquish the pain and the hiding and all of the sorrow. but i try to go on, and so far, that seems to be the meaning in my life. to continue until i can no longer...

the recluse hides from others, and more importantly, itself. ashamed of what it is and what it has become, the recluse feels varying degrees of guilt over the thought of having to feed off the living; usually the recluse has become a vampire against its will, or if a voluntary act, quickly grows to resent this decision.

often the recluse's physical appearance will lack the influence of the vampire charm, instead being replaced in equal by the alluring quality of its heart.

ironically, the recluse is often times a very powerful vampire, perhaps gaining power from its own aversion, or perhaps because its painful clutches to its lost humanity strengthen it.

music of the heart

clear the room
of every memory
i don't want that song back on
it's an endless maze
take away this haze
please mend my heart and
listen to the things i have to say...

it's crazy but this sexually-savvy (so savvy that i introduced to him the probabilty that he may have an addiction) friend of mine is addicted to the background music of my blog. he's confessed to me that he purposely goes here to chill.

that's a good boost on my ego---people liking the music playing in the background more than my teenybopper writing skill. no-brainer, really.

come to think of it, i really adore this song too for reasons only i am privy of.